u know wat is world?

this is a fucking tired world..
why they just think everything can done smoothly without a single things to sacrifice?
i duno this i duno that~
everythings become reality i only know..
do u all ever think to discuss with me?
everythings is this ppl say that ppl say..
however i am the one who sleep beside u~
y u don't straight away tell me ask me?
i saw the dead line is getting nearer and nearer~
but where can i get the fucking shit money come out?
mayb if i work part time u rely on me..think that i can feed myself..FINE~
i still can accept..
but i am jst a student didnt do any part time job..
and u are the one who working...~!!!
and u tell me u NO fucking MONEY~!!
ever~!! since i am 1 years old until now..
those fucking word i heard is come from fucking idiot~!!
dun say u are wrong..because u should know..
everything i tell it very very very early~!! 4 years before..
i am pretty sure..since my bf say dun wan go oversea until i convince him go for it..
it is about 3 years ago..
everymonth 1,000...10 month u can have RM10,000..
3 years...u can calculate urself~
that day my bf tell me that his family have the intention to borrow me some money..
u know i am like OMG~!!
can dun treat me so good..??
when others treat me good i will think that how BAD is my own family..
my temper my voice volume all my things i train from here...
dun tell me that i am not a good girl or lack of filial piety...
u know wat is my situation~
i hope i can cry out loud..because i am hopeless now..!!
i duno wat can i do in order to achieve my dream...
or else u can say..is my fault coz i didnt try to do a single things..
so u tell me wat can i DO??