why?

why everybody also like that?
i dun ever have this kind of feeling~
but now i have alot alot of bad feeling~
nobody will ask u wan to join or not b4 they decide to do the things~
or mayb 1...2...3..peoples treat the same way means that is my problem?
i should think about it..seriously...

jst a timing~

jst a timing problem and i able to know how people look at me~
how ppl think about me..
and what kind of ppl i am...
that y the rules of mine is still the same..

1. don't blame
2. don't complaint
3. don't play
4. don't talk too much...

i tot my friend will knw me..
i tot my friend say i am the best is true..

learned:
people can complain about me..
i cannot complain back...
coz i din have the qualification ...

我很可怕~

我想我是令人可怕的~
是我想太多吗~？
如果我没有拨打这通电话我应该不会知道这一切~
原来我让人觉得好可怕~
其实我好失望也好想哭~
朋友都怕了~

forever~♥

错~
你的永远的永远~不会只有一个人~
我逞强。。
是应为我不想让你看到我哭泣。。
我们可以抛开面子一辈子这样的走下去吗？
每当夜深人静的时候都很安静
但，心却很吵~

我就像一个典型的山羊~
固执，倔强的爱着你。。
我看似很强
但，我没有安全感~
我很负面 。。
往往我可以劝别人想正面
但，我却不能说服我自己~

如果我们之间可以从来,
我会选择。。。。不认识你
这样，你就 不会那么不快乐~
可能你会找到更好的~
不是吗？

也许想什么前世和永远都是我错了~
我想太多。。
是吗？
也许就像你说的。。
根本没有所谓的永远~
我想都只是我一个人以为有永远吧了~
但我坚持永远~♥

i am not the one~i am so afraid...

this few day i jst wan to play with u..
but y every time when i wan to play with u i jst hurt u?
i am not purposely wan to do that..
but y u shout at me??
i knw very pain..
i try to sayang..
but u jst keep talking so loud..
what can i do?
i feel sorry
y i am so wrong?
-don't blame
-don't talk
-don't play..
this is wat i should remember..
he ask me to get out from his room..
the moment i dont knw what can i do~
i knw actually u not happy at all when u are with me....
now every day i talk loud abit i will make him feel like i am angry...
every day, every week i count
one week will over 5 days he will ask me
"y? are u angry?"
"er...y u sound so fierce"..?
" i make u angry?"
"am i let u feel not good"?
no u are not u are not~
i really feel that i am very fail to be a gf..
dun tell me u are not good..
coz i am the only one who very bad..
i duno y this few week i feel i am very very stress...
not because of my exam...
when when it become like that?
why everything not the same..?
what can i do..to make him happy?
i wan to cry...i wan to cry on ur shoulder..
does u forever belongs to me?
or u wan to be alone?
tell me? or else i wont let u go~
coz i hope u are mine...

my heart i duno what she feeling..
my brain i duno what she thinking
my hand i duno what she doing
my eyes i duno what she hoping
my mouth i duno what she talking
my leg i duno where she going...

my heart is sick...
i am so afraid...
3 times u mean it..u say it..
u wan me to let u go?
i scare i scare i scare..
i hope i can shout out my thinking my feel to my friends..
but i cant..
i knw u dun like...