my love...my family..

i think i am i 100% negative thinker...
this is a bad habit ever~
i love family..i cant stand they scold me or talk louder to me..
and of course i totally can't even accept they misunderstand me...
this is the day actually i think is worth to remember...
just because of one belt and 320 euro...we argue?
no actually we not...
i 100% trust my family..each member...
i jst wanted to know something and ask...and i didn't expect my sister give me such response..
in the way that i feel like i am just an outsider...
and although i am really an outsider..
but of course i 100% hope that they treat me as their family..
i know i am jst like the person have thick face...always stick with them..
i not want others things..but i want their love..
i love the way we are together..
when they go eat..i will always ask "Y didnt invite me"
actually i can even dun eat or drink..but jst enjoy the moment stay together with them..
or actually i talk so much..i am the one who doesn't really show my love to them..
yea...i admit...
but i know many people may not understand me..but
they love me.. =]

這樣想著想著就變了,說著說著就算了...

开始了工作的日子。。生活又变得不一样了。。。
我有好多话想说。。。
但是又知道彼此的脾气不好。。
最后一定闹得吵架收场~
我避免不了它发生~
吵架也得看情况~
也许今晚夜了我不是那么开心但，我选择不讨论它。。
应为我担心你不开心。。
第二天更没有精神去上班~
我担心这个
担心那个~
最后就什么都没说过了一次又一次~
我真的觉得我才是男人~
有些事也许你来做会更好~
但你也许会说， 有分你我的吗？
我生闷气的说别人520 都收到了祝福，但你没祝福我哦~
你却说，舍？我们以前也没有啊~
可是偶尔让我开心下不行吗？
那天开到了love型的拼图卡片，你又发现我很喜欢吗？

有时我会开始在想， 我 要的你都会试着去给我~
但你有贴心，细心的想过我要什么吗？不是每一次都要我自己去要求
我知道你工作压力大~
也许你每一次在工作上遇到不顺境的事，
回来我还闹脾气，你就会觉得为什么每一个人都这么对你。。
是你那里做错了？
你动不动就觉得我说话大声。。。很敏感
我很想告诉你，我发现我连发脾气和生气的权利都没了~
你到底知道我是谁吗？
你到底了解我吗？
我会怀念以前的我们~