biRthday..?

i wonder tis year where i will be..?
my college?
can i have a nite with my family...
y everyone can spend their bday with their friend n family in different day..
n y i need to spend my real date with my friends?
i dun wan ok...
not i dun like..
if can celebrate early than tat or mayb late than tat..
or mayb dun need to celebrate.
but i knw all of u got heart is ok already..
if not i will lost the chance to celebrate with my dearest family..
am i?
ya...........
what i do..???
baoz will help me plan?
did he knw i hope to celebrate with my family?
especially my 2 family..
include all
baba,mama,2baba,2mama,3brother,3sister,2 ah sou , nAt n nicole...
and u...
tats wat i wan..warm..

莫名的感动。。

体会到包担心我一个人在家的感受。。
15分钟就到。。
但却被爸爸骂了。。
真的很对不起他。。
如果可以的话我应该阻止他来的。。。
虽然他来到说了很多不是我想听的话。。
但是。。
我好感动。。
不懂为什么。。

才发现

看着眼前的人打自己。。
回头才发现自己也伤痕累累。。
手指头疼了。。
手疼了。。


心也疼了。。

拒绝误会。。
拒绝乱读思想。。

一个没有晚餐的夜晚。。
不是我的夜晚。。

trAvel..

16.10.2009
the nite..
taking bus to Hat yAi..
bringing an excited heart to there..
lol..
the 1st time tat brush my teeth
at a dirty toilet full of ppl
still need money..
tis is M'sia toilet..
omg..
hmm..
i never knw i will slp with the tour guide..
is a young gal..
a tRip with 8 hours bus..
tired>,< when reach there we got no time to traVel around..
sad.. jst buy some instant nOOdle famous in thAi..
tis is the souvenir..
haha..
so sorry to my fren..
i got no chance to buy souvenir..
but i got buy 5 elephant for my closer fren.. include myself..
will i go thr agAin..?
i wan to go Bkk..
3days 1 nite tRip.. is so busy..
eat n eat..
18.10.2009
8.30am..
we leave..
thx baba n mami
bring me go there have a simply tRavel..

i tell myself..

this sem. i really should take at least A ok..
i dun wan my destiny only can get A-..
oh no..
jst check my result..
hmm..hopefully my measurement pass..
but overall the result is not wat i wan..
y my legal get B- but not B+ or A-?
i'm so ahrd

i had a dream~

I had a dream that i could fly..
from the higest swing..
i had a dream..

bAoz..

tis few days i really wondering..
do u really understand me..?
did i really understand u..?
sounds wierd..
i hope is totally "YES"
but..it seems like not..
are u my soul mate of my life..?
i really hope so..
but we look worst now..
i got many things to say..
but it seems like i forgive it..
mayb u too..

某人

昨天
遇见了某人的某人。。
hmm。。
某某人看起来找到了另外一个某人。。
哎，以为某人和某人
还会有复合的机会。。
看起来是我错了。。
原来每一个人都是那么不坚持的。。
爱情长跑。。
就只能说。。
朋友最好。。
说一生掰。。
某人和某人的关系就没了。。
但是我依然还是希望某人他会不放弃某人。。
感动某人。。
让某人回到以前那样。。
给最亲爱的某人。。

oo..is awesome..

yesterday jst watched a video..
showing the fann wong n chris lee wedding..
their wedding is wat a gals wish to have one..
use to be..
they are so sweet..
when i finish their wedding video..
suddenly feel that
i hope..
i hope..
hope to have a wedding day jst like them..
but actually is impossible for me..
ah..
i really really can imagine that how happy was it..
no matter need to pay how much or wat..
last long love...
that's wat i hope...

无题

就近为某件事烦恼。。
不知不觉整个人就一直烦恼着。。
我好奇怪好奇怪。。
不是奇怪自己。。
奇怪为什么只可以这样？
为什么都会觉得我难搞？
不是不是。。
不是我要的。。
不喜欢。。
但我接受。。
可是却到达了一个程度。。
不可以那样了。。
算吧。。

真。假

我真的真的不希望那是这样的。。。
我了解那担心。。
心痛的感受。。
为什么我不早点知道呢。。
一直相信着。。
原来都是假的。。

good n bad'

last more paper to go..

today having structural study exam..

feel good~XD

aikz..

today saw something tat so bad..

we jst pretend we cant c..

nvm...

we got our life..

u got ur life...

wat frens means??

ntg means...

now i jst realise..

================================================

tat day celebrate baoz bday...but seems tat i no need to invite them to come out..

they jst come n sit n eat cake..?

anyone care my baoz??

some more look baoz so boring n dissapointed..

aikz..

useless gf~!!

love you~

food poisonous~!!

come n find me again..
vomit ,diarrhea..
i wonder isit becoz the "pak li"..
mee mamak~!!
gosh..baoz is serious than me..
luckily early go see doctor..
mami fetch me go..
when i tell her i wan go c doctor..
she faster cum from her house n forget to bring her hp..
>.<
sometimes sick also can be hapiness..
family will turn in n out take care of u..
some kind of feeling cant describe..
doctor gv me 3 days mC..
lolx..but i think friday should go to coll..
if not i will miss the tips ..
still feeling tired now..!!
hope we can get recover soon~!!

irritated~!!!

wat the hell~!!!
bull shit..
u all jst knw how to eat..
if no ppl organize will u all follow..
SHIT..~!
I STOP GIVING Any COMMENT ~!!!
no longer a organizer now...
cannot be and dont want be..
tis late that late..
non of my business..!!
wat for we should argue argue argue..
i use my heart to listen adi...
u say i angry..?
wat the F...
i jst wake up headache..
asnwer n listen so many,..
SHIT...
SHIT SHIT
although is rude..
but i jst wan to say SHIT...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
y my colloege fren din bring any irritated things to me??
they jst follow all the plan nicely..
no need to worry them so much...
so y u all cant..??SHIT....

u knw?

你知道夜深了我還怕一個人讀書嗎?
為甚麼可以一聲不吭的上去了..
為什麼每次都是我先上去呢?
眼睛都腫了
都花了..
我就是我..
大壓力了...
不明白自己為什麼那麼笨..?
生氣自己..
不可以嗎..?
溫習的時候
就是這樣...
有什麼錯了嗎..?
期待你會下來...
可是並沒有..
在我身邊陪我的不是你嗎?
可是沒有人..
鼓勵我的人呢?
為什麼漸漸變得你可以生氣..
但我不可以了呢..
好好睡吧....
突然覺得..
也許我再怎樣變還是一樣的..
也許現在的我是別人..
會比較好..

my timE..?!

where is my time?
seems like so free..
but feel like no time..
how to manage?
EcO. MEasurement. Law.
so on n so on..
emo..
duno wat i'm studying now..
aww...
kill myself...
measurement mid-term test i totally no confident at all..
duno wat i'm doing..
gosh..
anybody teach stupid person..?
here...stupid student.i'm..
i cant help many things in my group measurement assignment
feel sorry to say that..
wat to do~!!
sorry to my fren..
use a whole day only study 2 lecture of eCo..
...busy body...
clock will keep moving..!!
plz..
dun b crazy okie?

bAking~

aikz..today duno y i suddenly found a blog..
talk abt baking..
unlukily i love baking but no oven..
so i found one cake made without baking..
yea~
i can make it for my baoz..
look easy..
but duno will i spoil it..
i so admire those person have a good cooking & baking skills..
hope i can do that also~!!
Happy Home Baking: No-Bake Chocolate Cheesecake

nitE n nitE"

jst finish an online game..
mahjong mahjong..
tired..
2day 6++am wake up study til 9pm..
but now still open the net n having fun around..
panda eyes..
ntg special for 2day..
laughing non-stop for whole measurement class
damn funny..
the lecture peech is broken..
haha..
measurement..
aikz..
hope i can handle it well..
dun be lazy ok?
nite~

bOnjuk~

那天到了bonjuk.. 想不到。。

我们还是走错路。。

但是这次多了耐心。。

顺利吃到。。

餐厅就像被我们包了下来一样。。

空荡荡的。。

感觉浪漫。。

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

今天原本要看ice-age的。。

说不用钱。。

不用钱。。

但还是用了。。

唉。。

不要出街。。

就不需用钱。。

存钱。。

大家不要找我。。

我连吃块蛋糕都没钱了。。

唉。。。

真希望可以这样对大家说。。

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

今天大日子。。

姐，生日快乐。。

怎么打不到给你呢。。？

好想念你。。

几时才能见到你。。？

我要回到以前的生活。。。

一起做白痴的动作。。

谈心事。。

一起逛街。。

买一样的衣服。。

cliNic again~!!

2day go visit doctor again..
due to my female problem...aikz..

pain till vomit 3 times.. till all the breakfast cum out..

hehe..

but feel bless..

becoz bao bao so take care of me..

hehe..

he drive so fast n fetch me home..

then go pudu visit doctor..

aikz..

wait the doctor abt 2 hours

cost me RM70

n when we go out only realise tat we so "lucky"

shit..get a summons~!!!

aikz..

luckily now better abit
finally wednesday got watch T.R.A.s.F.O.r.M.e.r

with baoz baoz...hahaha

quiet nice..bumble bee~!!

我呢？

昨天姐飞回去了。。

唉。。

每次都不舍。。。

5am 的时候。。

收到她的讯息。。

顺利到达~

希望她在那里一切顺利。。

我等你回来哦~

今天不是很开心。。

考车“肥佬”了。。。

原本很有自信的。。

为什么呢。。？

还是逃不过命运。。

都怪自己太紧张了。。

为什么我做事越来越胆小了？

越来越不坚强。。

越来越依赖。。

我不要。。

我要以前的我。。

mi.a.neh~

对不起。。

除了对不起我真的不知该说什么好。。
我没有想过会有这一天。。
看着你睡不着的样子。。
很痛。。
真的很痛。。


谁。。
拿铁链绑住我的心了？
揪在一起
。。



我若无其事的。。
和你说话。。
可是却感觉。。
不好受。。

真的。。


对不起。。
我錯了..
我還會是你心目中的乖女兒嗎?
会是嗎?
妈。。

对不起，我爱你~

again n again~

我没有想要和你吵。。
我的语气。。
我的表情。。
你不是不知道的。。

感覺很幸福..但是無助~

不知如何是好~

我知道你們很疼我..

但是我不知道要怎樣...

接受嗎?

欠你們的太多了..

assignment~!!

assignment again~!!
law law law~
tis sem having a subject "law studies"
study abt the contract
promisor n promisee..
gosh...headache..
so many things to find~
but duno which question is the most easy to present..
><"
should i make a lucky draw...?
aikz...so sleepy..and the brain seems like din move...
jst study build soft this afternoon..
lolx..jst go there type n type so many word..
sweat~!!
aikz..hope everything can do with the best of the best~!!
good nite~my little diaRy~

did i change?

tat day b4 my lovely sister cum bek from Aus.
we cht at msn..
she told me tat i change?
she say the only person who cant see is me~
duno y my heart suddenly feel so sad..
i wan to knw where i'm changing?
but she din reply me again~
she cum bek 3 days ago..
we din meet up b4..
due to the reason i start my skul
not free..
aikz...wat should i do?
omg...
i keep thinking some ppl are change~
but the one who change the most is ME?
mayb..
mayb..........
but i still love u all so much~

痛~

很疑惑..

為甚麼每次都頭痛..

痛到不行...

頭痛不要黏我!!

過幾天你們就回來了..

期待的說..

很久沒有和你們坐在一起吃飯了..
希望你過關順利..^^

想你們..

很久的照片了..

今天原本dean 約我們去他的學校的..

真的太不巧了..

我答應了媽咪要在這裡過夜的..

不可以反悔..

因為我很久沒來了

真抱歉...

但很想參與..

唉......

swiNe flu~

today no rain again..
is a hot day...
i go bao hse...n on9 the whole day~
so scare my skin become terrible..
headache...
a new flu is founded...
SWINE flU
death at Mexico is rising up..
hope everything will be okay~

",",kiss de rAin~",'",

闭上眼。。。听着yiruma的歌…
满脑子回忆起一路长大的历程。。。
岁月不留人。。。
想着幸福的画面。。。
想着想着
眼泪不知觉得流了下来。。。
有快乐又悲伤。。。
但快了的那一面我要记起来。。
可是只怕顽固的脑子会渐渐忘了这些快乐。。。
每个人对我的好。。。
每次只会在心里想说做些什么。。。
但是每次都不了了之。。。
而且每次都比别人慢。。。
等你想念人的时候。。。
总没想过要问候一下别人。。。
也不知道其实别人比你更想他。。。
问自己真的没时间吗。。。
时间都去了哪里了..?
电脑吗。。。？？
电脑不会比一个人更珍贵吧。。。
惭愧。。。！！
我该检讨一下。。。
对不起。。两位妈妈。。。
母亲节到了。。。
两位妈妈的礼物该准备了。。。
可以送些什么呢。。？？
每次只会叫妈妈做东西。。。
而我又为过妈妈做些什么呢。。？
哪怕是一样小小的事情也做不好。。。
再惭愧。。。！！

is a rainny day~

...feel abit of cold..

so boring..ply with my farm town n pet society in the facebook..

with playing this i also see 1111..
omg..

i went pc fair yesterday..

is crowded..
finally help mss buy a router..

in a cheaper price..wakaka..

tat day i date them out to yum cha..

but jst come with mss,wei liam,vinz,sak lam..and fan..

i also duno y the others dun wan cum out..

aikz..

is ok..jst a pass tense...

sumthing i hope that wont happen is jst come around..

hope that it will recover soon..

cough none stop.. fro 2 weeks ago..

when i wake up in the nite..cough n cough..

.....hugry hungry..ntg to eat..

hope rain will stop..

is so busy~

tis few month just busy with my 3rd sem life..

nw..mss will becum my driver my lovely driver..

fetch me everywhere..

but we plane to save more money now..

yesterday,go out with my frens..

is peng hang 's birthday..

yea~wish u a very happy birthday~!!!

take a pic nini~

haha.we take while they r singing in a high mood..

so loud and we can bear it..so hide in the toilet take photo..hehe..

after tat i din join..

i jst go back with mss...

coz too late adi...

2ml havin a small test..hope i can get a great result..~>.<

**busy to study

happy chinese "niu" year..hmm..

seems like long time din update my blog..

tat day saw my cousin..den we chit chat the whole day..

so happy..

the 1st time go clubbin go with my cousin..haha..
so weird..coz never think b4..

join with her fren..

damn friendly..

din try b4..

but i din ask my mum permission..

due to my mum too close to my aunty..
my cousin scare her mum scold her..

ply till 2am..

the next day my fren cum my hse

take ang pao..haha

jst slp 6 hrs den force to wake up..

tired nia~
still have one more exam waiting for me.
so scare..
building material..

my god..