i need a shoulder very much~

this is the 1st time i needed it so much~
i want to CRY~!!
cry out loud..could u let me cry over the river..
i feel my heart is crying and crying now..
i need to be calm..
i need to be mature...
i need to control my tears...
i need...
i need it...
if i dun cry i will crazy...
i can pretend..but please at least let me cry one time okay?
my life sometime suck..sometime nice..sometime bored..and sometime is just dead...
i got alot of supporter..alot of friend who caring me~
and a love one caring me...
my relative caring me...
but ... i wish u all were there on that day...
is my 1st time to fly and study OVERSEAS
although is jst study for 3 months and travel for 1 months..
but...is the 1st and last time for me..
i know ppl are feel sorry to me..
but to let them feel better just to say "is okay" and plus a smiley face ^o^
but u knw the heart and hand is shaking ..
and the emotions is T.T...='(...
...tell urself..to be tough ok~!!
is not a big deal~ah yea..
is not a big deal..
at least u knw their heart..enough..that's all~
i love u and u and u~ and myself..
hello~ I feel good~!!!

missing me?

y i cant feel the feeling of missing? i can't feel it~!!!