my love...my family..

i think i am i 100% negative thinker...
this is a bad habit ever~
i love family..i cant stand they scold me or talk louder to me..
and of course i totally can't even accept they misunderstand me...
this is the day actually i think is worth to remember...
just because of one belt and 320 euro...we argue?
no actually we not...
i 100% trust my family..each member...
i jst wanted to know something and ask...and i didn't expect my sister give me such response..
in the way that i feel like i am just an outsider...
and although i am really an outsider..
but of course i 100% hope that they treat me as their family..
i know i am jst like the person have thick face...always stick with them..
i not want others things..but i want their love..
i love the way we are together..
when they go eat..i will always ask "Y didnt invite me"
actually i can even dun eat or drink..but jst enjoy the moment stay together with them..
or actually i talk so much..i am the one who doesn't really show my love to them..
yea...i admit...
but i know many people may not understand me..but
they love me.. =]