i am not the one~i am so afraid...

this few day i jst wan to play with u..
but y every time when i wan to play with u i jst hurt u?
i am not purposely wan to do that..
but y u shout at me??
i knw very pain..
i try to sayang..
but u jst keep talking so loud..
what can i do?
i feel sorry
y i am so wrong?
-don't blame
-don't talk
-don't play..
this is wat i should remember..
he ask me to get out from his room..
the moment i dont knw what can i do~
i knw actually u not happy at all when u are with me....
now every day i talk loud abit i will make him feel like i am angry...
every day, every week i count
one week will over 5 days he will ask me
"y? are u angry?"
"er...y u sound so fierce"..?
" i make u angry?"
"am i let u feel not good"?
no u are not u are not~
i really feel that i am very fail to be a gf..
dun tell me u are not good..
coz i am the only one who very bad..
i duno y this few week i feel i am very very stress...
not because of my exam...
when when it become like that?
why everything not the same..?
what can i do..to make him happy?
i wan to cry...i wan to cry on ur shoulder..
does u forever belongs to me?
or u wan to be alone?
tell me? or else i wont let u go~
coz i hope u are mine...

my heart i duno what she feeling..
my brain i duno what she thinking
my hand i duno what she doing
my eyes i duno what she hoping
my mouth i duno what she talking
my leg i duno where she going...

my heart is sick...
i am so afraid...
3 times u mean it..u say it..
u wan me to let u go?
i scare i scare i scare..
i hope i can shout out my thinking my feel to my friends..
but i cant..
i knw u dun like...